Wat do I like more…!!!

Routine life has taken a new way, me going in general shift by Company bus to office. So getting plenty time to listen to FM. And there was a question one day “Tell me five things that you like the most”. Then I started thinking what do I like more.

Father, Mother, Sister…???....Yeah Ofcourse family members…ones blood relation and together from childhood. So that’s a defaulted one…May not be mentioned specifically…Wat next..!!!

I could fetch few names of hero/heroines…but to be specific I don’t know much and how r they in reality. So ruled out. Wat next…!!!!

Then I could make out few names of frndz whom I actually have been with.All those who are Kind Hearted/Straight Forward/Caring n hav the qualities of True personality are into my list.

As my mind is busy thinking..able to hear the answers that listeners gave. Major include Money/Car/Mobile/Computer/FM/Hero/Heroines/Myself etc etc

Again that I heard it from people I doesn’t know. So thought would ask the same to frndz@FB. Got a good set of answers and I am happy to look at them because they just spoke about the near n dear ones focusing on human relationship and not MONEY.

Above all one thought that was scrolling in Mind is about me…!!!

MYSELF…!!! Oops…its a major question mark. Because before telling out any other name whom I hate the most, I would end up with mine at first. Why is it so…even I doesn’t know. But to be frank I don’t like myself much coz of few stupid reasons. I was with the same mind all the time, and also I believe “I am a good friend to myself and at the same time a good enemy to myself”. Watever, let me say “I like myself the most” though I pretend that’s not from my bottom of the heart. Love yourself at times. Everyone is  born for some purpose or the other and one day it would be proved that “Your existence has a true meaning”. Even I am waiting for the same…!!!

So there I am saying 'I love myself too' :)

Mind Vs Heart....!!!!!

By the way how does human beings react to any situation…How do they take a decision…How do they remember things that come across their way..How does they think innovative….Oooooo….Thats where I am now…!!!,…God is so great that he has created  beings which have two major Organs that contribute  to all the actions that one do..Hmmmm….How far do you agree with my statement, that both Mind n Heart gets involved in taking a decision. Is that true,…!!!....Yes, I believe it….but only that Mind dominates Heart.

Heart, a poor fellow….that just knows to love people spreading the warmth all around and also sometimes to hate people when they break it. Many times it is asked for the opinion before mind takes a decision, but it was given least importance at times as Mind is the Monarch taking all the decisions dominating Heart which may or may not take the Right path. Heart tries for unitedness and it just knows to think good n do good & to spread love to people n environment around.

Mind,the richest fellow responsible for ones actions. The King ruling all the activities that one do. It can be a good friend but also an evil at times making people to perform actions which cause distraction. A person who listens to only Mind may not be successful all the time but the one who listens to their Heart can be Successful. It is good to have Mind and Heart on the same level so that the decisions one take can take a right path.

An example that I would like to Quote is

A Person says…….I’m Proud of my Heart, U Know Y..??....Everyone Played with it, Loved it, Hurt it, Broke it  but somehow it works….

That was the case with many of us…..Heart is built and broken many times but it still keeps on working because when it stops working , one is no more either virtually or physically

What I wanted to convey from this post is Guyz/Galz don’t give importance to Only the decision taken by the Mind(Which looks for Benefit or thinks Commercial) but also give ample importance to your little Heart (Which looks for Love and Peace) while taking decisions. Mind cannot always give a fruitful path but including Heart can do it so. We are Human beings which has a very Big Asset that is very much needed inorder for this evolution to be Safe, Happy and a Place of Heaven. So do use it at times..:):):)

Attitude....!!!!!

This post is about a very famous word that is a part of us and we speak of it many times n that’s ATTITUDE. By the way what does it mean? Everyone has their own definitions. Many times I say, I like that person because of the Attitude….but what I do look for…!!!!!!

In simple words, I term attitude is the way a person thinks and behaves at different situations is what I look for…

It’s easy for one to be Happy when Good happens.

It’s easy for one to feel Sad when something goes Wrong

It’s easy to say one is Not Jealous but sometimes situation demands where one is Jealous of the other

Its easy to say one doesn’t get Angry but there would be a scenario demanding to become Anger

Its easy to say one is Positive always but there would be times where we think Negative

So what can be inferred from above is Whenever one is with a good mind or in a stable situation, they speak a lot but what matters is how does they behave when they come across actual situation is what attitude mean

Maintaining a positive mental outlook, no matter what goes around them is positive attitude. “When the going gets tough, the tough gets going”. Being able to stand on ones feet when the forces work against you is something that can guarantee to Success and Happiness.

Below is one example that I like a lot

Bird to Bee: You Work So Hard To Get Honey & People Steal. Don’t You Feel Sad? 

Bee to Bird: No, Because They Can Never Steal My Art of MAKING HONEY!

That determines the positive attitude of a Bee…a Way to Live..

The way one Behaves, the way one Works, the way one Manages their Time, the way one Adapts to the Changes in Life, the way one Communicates, the way one Thinks…all contribute to Attitude and that’s   where a personality can be determined.

Attitude is a mirror which shows what you are to the world. Good Achievers are those who maintain a positive attitude whatever the situation be.

Let’s maintain a Positive Attitude in order to lead a Better way of Life..:):):)

Weekend….!!!!!!!!!!

Weekend Comes and Goes….The Whole Weekdays you wait for a Weekend and it just comes and goes like a thunder. Usually I don’t have much planned for the weekends..it just passes by…may wid a frnd meet, may b with a new movie, may b relatives visiting, may be me going to meet relatives, may b doing cleaning acitivities, may b luking at the TV, may be wid time pass @ FB and internet.

Today somehow I am feeling bored, thinking wat to do. Mom is not at home, feeling like something is really missing…could make out a huge difference….Mom used to be always back of me Teasing/Scolding/Praising the things I do. There used be a remainder at regular intervals, Whenever I On the system...and today don't hav any..:P

Just recollecting the past memories. Saw many old photos of CBNA, team that I am currently working wid and Frndz at Campus. Feeling nostalgic. Just planning to visit Campus for the cuming Oasis. Let’s see how far things would turn my way. Waiting for a bangful trip. Wish that I could make one soon..:):):)

My Three Wishes…!!!!!!!!!!

If god comes to you and asks for one wish to say….What would you ask….?????

Well that was this post all about. Whenever someone put forward this question the 3 Wishes that line up in my mind are

First one would be, Please give me a life where I would always be like a small kid enjoying my time without any hurdles or may be with small small ones even which I enjoy. Whenever I use to see the small Kids at my school, every time I felt, I wish I could have been like that the whole life. When I was in 10^th Standard, we were asked to sit in the ground floor for study hours. There I use to see all the little ones very cutely walking and coming happily late to school, followed by Tiffin, followed by play time, followed by study time, followed by lunch time, followed by sleep time, followed by play time again and finally back to home. Wah what a time table..:)….Kids does not have any limitations, any boundaries, any grudges, any complaints, any sorrows……all they have is the happiness, peace of mind, crazy time, enjoying the life. Even if one wanted to stop…no doubt they’ll not allow to do so…;)..That’s why I like that. I love to be like a Kid may be of nursery or LKG..:P..Jokes a part that’s seriously my first wish..Haha…:D

Second one would be, Please give me a Elder Brother who treats me like a small kid and is always nice to me and who loves me to the core…always supporting….encouraging me for what so ever I do, Teasing me, helping me, Making me feel happy with his unconditional and everlasting  affection, participating in crazy activities…. From Childhood I miss a Bro always..God let that wish come true sometime..:)

Third one would be, Please give me a life where in I would be born as a Guy. Stylish, Daring and Dashing enjoying the life the way I wish, with NO restrictions ever. Many leaders say Girls are equivalent to Guyz and they have given equal importance all the time, but that doesn’t happen. Galz are many times treated low and they can never get out of the boundaries leading an independent life. That’s why I wish I would take a birth of a boy once..:)

Wish that my wish list gets fulfilled sometime….So what about you…!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!....Good/Bad n Happy/Unhappy....!!!!!!!!!!!

The day was quite interesting. Looked over the Rating for the performance of this year.  Oooo its ‘S’ again…With this got a hatric but of course it doesn’t mean I’m extraordinary..:P:P. Then went for the settlements, one to clear my Guaranteed Loan n the other to Look over the Investments for future. Then saw the movie “Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara”.

Before going for the movie itself…..today somehow my heart was saying mind to write something about God/Bad and Happy/Unhappy just because I realized few things that came across my way today.

A day can be good or bad based on the mood/mind set/things happening. It may be good or may not be. Someday we feel very happy where as the other day we feel sad. There might be some reason behind any of them but point to be noted is when the mind feels relaxed and happy then all days would be good. Just to make up our mind it’s always good to throw light on things which we like the most and not on the things which make you distracted. Past cannot be changed then why to give it more thinking. Leave it; enjoy the life by choosing the way you love to be….giving least importance to what others think. None in this world is happy forever. Everyone has their own set of problems and it’s up to one how they face them and how they prioritize them.

Somehow there was a coincidence of my thinking with that of the movie. Movie was good with the three frnd characters going for a bachelor party and finally realizing that Life is to enjoy each moment coming out of scarcity and doing the things that one like. Simple Message, Funny Jokes and Crazy Spain Tradition make me reminded of good olden days. One memorable experience was in our trip to Rishikesh with Rafting. I simply loved the time we spent there and did not want to come out of it. Waves, Boating, Long Jump from 22ft. Wahhh It was full of fun and njoyed it to max. I have been to Mount Opera, Jal Vihar. But Rishikesh Rafting was too good that I wanted to be there once again…:D. Along with that I could analyze few things.

Many times came across the discussions that Guyz point out Gals for some reasons and vice versa. I just feel that both are equally good and both are equally bad. There should be a mutual understanding and not that we just say the fault is with one. Guyz wanted to be independent, enjoying the life with crazy things where as galz are dependent wanting to spend most of the time with their family/better half.  Galz will be happy with little surprises and remembers n celebrates small small occasions where as Guyz don’t even remember such. There are many points which can be pointed over here but I just say ..Gals give some independence to Guyz, let them have some space so as to enjoy and do what they wanted to do …..and Guyz at the same time give some importance to Galz feelings, make them happy with the little surprises and being true to wat you say. There would be a proper reason for everything that one do.  Proper understanding would always lead to a healthier relationship. When one is wrong let the other accept it making the former realize their faults and know the importance of the latter.  One small tip to galz…don’t mind when you have given least importance, just be positive and wait to watch the things that lead to a good way for sure at a later stage..What I wanted to say is not with only a Married Relationship but with any relation may be with friends, family members,etc. Overcome your Ego and there you can find a True Relationship. Good/Bad n Happy/UnHappy is always in your hands...Let it take the right path.....:):):)

Think Cool, Think Pleasant and Think Matured...!!!!!!!!!!!!

To Start with, I can state a telugu phrase “Avesam Alcochana Ku Chotu Ivvadu” meaning hurriedness/angerness will not allow a way for proper thinking. To point few

Attending/Answering in an interview:

Even if you go with a pleasant mind, when the questions start attacking you, at a particular point of time you feel things are going wrong n then tension starts implying thinking subjected to a black screen making no visibility of known things also. When first half go wrong, it’s obvious that the second part though is pretty much easy to overcome; people fail to do so I feel. If one is not under stress then they can handle the situation cool giving the breath to the second part at least

When a serious meeting goes on in which the boss says/demands to do things that are not satisfactory to you and which could not have been accepted by even him as a person but still asks the team to do only because of “Managerial Role”. All knew that it fetches nothing and that’s a huge loss to them but still no one points it correctly in the right direction and they search for ways to reach destination without taking the straight path, with a matured level of thinking and there are few with immaturity hits the correct route ending up with  a bad note @boss. Young blood is always like this, when it’s correct… why it can’t be put forward. But yes it’s a wrong step and one should not do that especially in profession life. Think Cool, Think Pleasant and Think Matured. Right things are not treated as right sometimes implying the necessity of change to make the mind think stable and tactful focusing on the lighter side n not on the heavier one which actually is not necessary.

Here I conclude saying konni sarlu avaesam panikiradu and at the same time alochana sariayina dari chupistundi. So my frndz I say Think Coolllllllllll, Think Pleasanttttttt and Think Maturedddddddddddd both @ Personal and Professional Life and you could surely have the fruit out of it..JJJ

Arru...One of my lovely Frnd...!!!!!!!!!!

Aravinda alias Arru, a sweet frnd of mine @ Satyam who is well known for her uniqueness. Her name itself falls into the category of flowers, which spreads "The Fragrance of the Presence" and "The Beauty of the Creation”. Her name absolutely describes her personality, the lingering fragrance of the lotus flower holds the perfect potential of bringing a tender smile on anybody's lips. It symbolizes the Clarity of heart as well as mind.

Thanks 2 God for the Creation of such Creature. A good stealer of hearts as a person..:P.  The qualities that I like in her...Helping nature which she never gives it up, Maturity levels in thinking that lead to right decision at right time, Beats of the kind heart that thinks of all though not her own ones, Smile that lasts all the way, Working Style which is Simple & Sweet, Enthusiasm that makes the participation in all events n fills energy, Passion 4 pets, movies n cooking, Enjoyment of each & every minute, Talks with info cum Gusa Gusa..Wat Not..!!!..Arru An All Rounder.

I simply luv her for the way she is. Its been more than one year that she left the company yet I could feel n recollect few moments that we had together. She is one of the loving friends I have. Ofcourse I would like to mark this too in my blog. So here I am..:):). There are few more in the list would try to pen down them too later…:D

My Birthday 2011

Birthdays come and go but the memories last long and 2011 was such one which gave me more happiness and memories that can be remembered for years. From Childhood we are used to celebrate birthday. We have grown up but still continue cutting cake n giving chocolates to make ones mouth sweet as we did in school. Wishing Frndz on their day, giving greeting cards/surprises such were still experienced by many of us. Even the same was with me too. The day started with a pleasant breeze, it was raining and I felt for sometime that even nature wants to celebrate my day and is happy for me showing it in the form of rain..:P..Then I had bath, went to temple to show my face to God at least on this day  & thank him for the life he has given and also to ask to give the strength so as to face the hurdles that come on my way with confidence. From there I went to sweet shop to get some for my neighbours/friends/team and then returned home. Mom was busy preparing special dishes for me with chicken which I like the most. Once she is almost done we had a cake cutting and got the blessings of mom. Earlier we use to have the cake cutting on the evening of birthday and it’s in the morning these days as I have to go to office in second shift. Then I gave the cake/sweets to my aunt n got her blessings too. Then had a delicious lunch n followed the path towards office.

From night wishes started from friends and with an energetic feel I entered the office. There all the team members started wishing me one by one on my way and I happily returned to desk. There I found a biggest surprise. My desk was completely decorated with flowers, greeting, ballons, wat not. It was awesome and I liked it to the core. Sat on my chair and opened my mails. Inbox is filled with plenty of good wishes from many. Thanked everyone and gave sweets to all. The day was going great and in the meantime there was a mail of cake cutting. Oh my goodness, creativity here too. I simply loved it. In between my frndz called me and there I found even more surprises one by one. They kept on giving  and I’m just watching, enjoying and with joy there were no words to express my happiness. They have presented me a watch, which I was thinking to buy from long time. It was simple cum stylish followed by a dress again which I liked n of course it has been chosen by me the previous day in a different context but finally that’s to me, which is then followed by purses along with hair pins which are very cute and I liked all of them very much.

In this way I was receiving many surprises one by one and people made me very special with the activities they have planned. After that we had the cake cutting which I enjoyed, with nice facials. Then had group photos and all of us enjoyed our snacks time. I have returned to the desk but was not in a mood to work, my mind was filled with happiness and the day was very special & memorable.

It got me reminded of the bistians birthdays- First year my Roomie b’day with the room completely decorated with flowers n blue hearts, Swathis’ first year b’day with Treasure Hunt, Shwaathi’s final year b’day with Pizza Cutting, Swathi’s third year b’day with Icecream Cutting, Maddy’s Last year b’day with presentations tat i had prepared, Cheri’s Photo Album n Flower Bouquet…Oooooooo..all those days r very memorable. Luved them n Luv u all lots my frndz….:D

My Special thanks to Uma, Siri, Satti, Srini n Subbu for making my day great and very special. I really did not have words to express my joy n happiness looking at the way the things are organized to make my day special. The efforts put forward by them have no boundaries as in my happiness that day. It was very memorable one that I could cherish for years n years. Thank you frndz…Luv u all…JJJ

Mistakes Mistakes Mistakes........!!!!!!!!

I usually believe I do fewer mistakes which may not be 100% true. I’m not sure how GOD has created me but there are times that some of my decisions take the right path while the others go wrong. Personally when a problem comes, I give it enough thinking that there can be a good solution and many times I’m correct in  taking a decision but again it would fetch benefit to the others when compared to the things that benefit more to me. My concentration is not about the people benefited. I just feel sometimes when I’m able to think good for others why I can’t to myself. There were few situations that causes root for the mistakes. To quote few simple examples:

Keeping a mail- In profession life, Many believe that I can do better than them in this job. They seek for suggestions and believes/involves me to a  good extent. They have a good impression on me don’t know why may be because of the Institute I came from and may be because of my earlier mails. When there are some occasion’s people ask me to draft a mail. I don’t understand what difference I make but just feel that my mail is simple, apt and easily understood. I actually don’t feel there is much change in terms of the exaggeration or hi5 languague. It’s the confidence they have and I cross verify again in order to keep up one’s confidence. But when it comes to me, sometimes I feel like not even cross verifying what is been written, will just circulate the mail. Less time is given for writing and sending because mind says enough why to re-verify it implying over confidence and ignorance. Along with this the other habit I have is looking at the sent mail again after it is been sent. There I could find the flaws and feels bad why did I make a mistake. This mistake might be small but is of lack of perfection which I don’t like myself. If I would have focused on my over confidence/ ignorance at a earlier stage, my mind would not have been disturbed which is Unnecessary at a later point of time

Planning Things- There are situations where we don’t get proper time to plan things properly but there are few situations where we have enough time to plan. Suppose if I feel to go to office early on some day. I’ll get up early but still I end up not reaching the office at the time I have planned already. Many times I end up giving not much variation between the times I reach office daily to that of the day I planned to go early. Again it is all because of ignorance. I’ll look at the time 10 times but reminds mind that I still have time to start and will pass the time doing some unnecessary things like Watching TV/@ FB/Roaming in and out/on phones at the early stage and finally end-up not making much difference compared to routine or failed to execute the planned activity.

In the same way there are many such instances like Mom asks me something and I keep on delaying the things, doing time pass at the beginning and rushing at the end, planned to go for an interview without the printout of resume and rush at the last minute, for good/bad at the same time power would not be there in the area n hav to seek frndz help in getting things done. Why all this, Why the hell I do mistakes, when I knew I can do things better.

Mistakes Mistakes Mistakes,,,,,,,I hate mistakes but still I do, when analyzed it is all because of my ignorance. So common baby get rid of your ignorance and mistakes will be no more…All d very best..:):):)

A beautiful story told by someone about his mother....!!!!

This story begins when I was a child: I was born poor. Often we hadn't enough to eat. Whenever we had some food, Mother often gave me her portion of rice. While she was transferring her rice into my bowl, she would say "Eat this rice, son! I'm not hungry." This was Mother's First Lie.

As I grew, Mother gave up her spare time to fish in a river near our house; she hoped that from the fish she caught, she could give me a little bit more nutritious food for my growth. Once she had caught just two fish, she would make fish soup. While I was eating the soup, mother would sit beside me and eat what was still left on the bone of the fish I had eaten; My heart was touched when I saw it. Once I gave the other fish to her on my chopstick but she immediately refused it and said, "Eat this 

fish, son! I don't really like fish." This was Mother's Second Lie.

Then, in order to fund my education, Mother went to a Match Factory to bring home some used matchboxes which she filled with fresh matchsticks. . This helped her get some money to cover our needs. One wintry night I awoke to find Mother filling the matchboxes by candlelight. So I said, "Mother, go to sleep; it's late: you can continue working tomorrow morning." Mother smiled and said "Go to sleep, son! I'm not tired." This was Mother's Third Lie

When I had to sit my Final Examination, Mother accompanied me.. After dawn, Mother waited for me for hours in the heat of the sun. When the bell rang, I ran to meet her.. Mother embraced me and poured me a glass of tea that she had prepared in a thermos. The tea was not as strong as my Mother's love, Seeing Mother covered with perspiration; I at once gave her my glass and asked her to drink too. Mother said "Drink, son! I'm not thirsty!". This was Mother's Fourth Lie..

After Father's death, Mother had to play the role of a single parent. She held on to her former job; she had to fund our needs alone. Our family's life was more complicated. We suffered from starvation. Seeing our family's condition worsening, my kind Uncle who lived near my house came to help us solve our problems big and small.

Our other neighbours saw that we were poverty stricken so they often advised my mother to marry again. But Mother refused to remarry saying "I don't need love." This was Mother's Fifth Lie.

After I had finished my studies and gotten a job, it was time for my old Mother to retire but she carried on going to the market every morning just to sell a few vegetables. I kept sending her money but she was steadfast and even sent the money back to me. She said, "I have enough money." That was Mother's Sixth Lie.

I continued my part-time studies for my Master's Degree. Funded by the American Corporation for which I worked, I succeeded in my studies. With a big jump in my salary, I decided to bring Mother to enjoy life in America but Mother didn't want to bother her son; she said to me "I'm not used to high living." That was Mother's Seventh Lie

In her dotage, Mother was attacked by cancer and had to be hospitalized. Now living far across the ocean, I went home to visit Mother who was bedridden after an operation. Mother tried to smile but I was heartbroken because she was so thin and feeble but Mother said, "Don't cry, son! I'm not in pain." That was Mother's Eighth Lie.

Telling me this, her eighth lie, she died. YES, MOTHER WAS AN ANGEL!

Happy Mother's Day

Mom’s hugs put joy in all our days,
Mom’s love will stay with us forever
and touch our lives in precious ways…
The values you’ve taught,
the care you’ve given,
and the wonderful love you’ve shown,
have enriched my life
in more ways than I can count.
I Love you Mom!

Essence of Love...!!!!

Do Read this Story…. One of the Forwarded message...Its Worth Reading

If you are a family man or Woman, do realize your importance and role at home and your family… and Spare some time for them and fill your life with everlasting, Enjoyable memories and moments…

Wish you a Happy Reading…. J

Wonderful Story…

‘You have done a brilliant work Rajesh. You have been given….rrrrhhhhh……Raaaajjjeeeessshhhh………… Raaaajjjeeeessshhhh .’- what!! I woke up from a sudden jerk. Raaajeeessshhh… .’…I heard my wife yelling. What’s w/ her? Always yelling for something or the other. I can’t be in peace even in my dreams. Shucks!! Angrily, I kicked my blanket and got down.

‘Raaajesssh….’ ‘Coming Meera..what’s w/ you. Why are you shouting like this..’.

I hurried down the stairs. I saw Meera, my sweet(??!!) wife, sitting in the couch giving breakfast to my 7yr old daughter Achala. Both looked happy, watching TV. I got confused at the whole scenario. I came running down, expecting some kind of earthquake, but instead here everything was in place. I looked at my wife & daughter. She smiled at me back. Now, I more

got confused, what’s happening here? Am I in a dream?

‘Meera…’

‘Yeah Rajesh…’

‘You called me. In fact yelled.’

‘Yes. You are right!’

‘Everything is fine here right? Why you screamed like that then…’

‘It’s ‘cos it’s going to be 8am now.’

I couldn’t understand what she was trying to say. Is she playing some kind of prank? Is this the time for all these? I have to be in office by 9am for a meeting.

‘Yes. It’s going to be 8am.Right! So…?’

‘Rajesh, don’t tell me, you forgot…today is 27th ‘

‘27th..What 27th?

‘Don’t tell me you don’t remember?’

Meera gave me an ‘I’ll kill you’ look. Is it her birthday? No it’s somewhere at the year end. Is it my daughter’s? No no , we celebrated last month only right. Got it. Should be our Anniversary.

‘Hey Meera, How will I forget our Anniversary…’

‘Whaattttttt? ???….Anniversaryy yyy???…..’

Got it. It’s not our anniversary. Before I get killed…What’s w/ 27th. What ?? what?? Come on Rajesh!! Think. Nothing hit my mind. I looked at my daughter for a clue. She turned her face away. What’s with all women? Why can’t they be straight forward & say things. With so much work pressure, how on earth I am supposed to remember all the dates?. If I say something, then Meera will pick up a fight, and I will miss the meeting, my whole day will be gone. I made up my mind to surrender.

‘Meera, Sorry, I don’t remember. This medicine I am taking for cough, Something happened..my memory is deteriorating ..What’s today?’ Meera doesn’t seem like buying that excuse from me.

‘Meera, please tell me’ I asked in a pitiable tone..

‘Rajesh..You don’t remember at all?’ I moved my head left & right meaning

NO. I kept my face like I am a patient suffering from ‘amnesia'.

'Rajesh, As part of annual day celebrations, today is 'Daddy's Day' in Acchu's school. I have been telling you for the past 3 weeks. Now don’t tell me you forgot. You already promised that you will go with her to her school'

I couldn’t believe that I accepted for something like that. 'Meeraa..did

I??'

'Yes. You did'

‘at what time it starts..?'

'By 8:30am and ends at 1pm'.

Gosh!! 9am!! I have such a critical meeting. How I will attend all these.

“Meera, you could have reminded me yesterday right?’

‘Oh I didn’t remind you? Great. I didn’t call to your office. Or remind you in the evening and before going to bed’

Might be I wouldn’t have heard it. Or slipped out of my memory. Whatever!!

'Meera! Can’t you attend all these. Why should I??'

"Rajesh. It’s Daddy's Day!...DADDY'ss!!!!!'

'Oh yeah....but. ..'

'But what????...'

'errrh....might be some other day...'

'What? You want the school to postpone the function?'

'No..No…actually. .what..I am saying is..'

'What Rajesh??? What?? Tell me. You promised Acchu and are you going to disappoint her? '

I stood there totally helpless. I looked at my daughter. She was all dressed up and ready to go. She looked like, she will cry any time. I saw Meera. She gave me a murderous look. I thought for a moment and my mind raced with many calculations. Important meeting. I can’t miss for sure. Half a day is too much. So many deliverables will get affected. I can’t face

Meera again if I don’t go. Might be I can postpone the meeting by an hour and for name sake visit that function and escape to office.

'Meera, I will go, but I can spend only 1 hour..'

'No...that’s not..'

Before Meera finished the sentence, Acchu rushed to me 'Thanks daddy. 1hour. Mom, 1hour is enough mom. Please don’t fight mom. Daddy, get ready soon..' she nudged me.

‘Do you know her school name and the route for the school or you want me to tell???’ Asking that Meera threw me an angry look and left the living room.

I rushed up, got ready. Called my manager & told that I got stuck in traffic jam and postponed the meeting to 10am.

I took Achala to her school. I felt somehow entering the school, ‘cos it’s the 2nd time, I am entering her school. In fact 1st time. I once dropped her outside her school gate. The school had a big playground, Small Park with all kids playing equipments. Some stalls were put up. So many kids with their fathers moved around here & there. Suddenly I felt some one touching

my hand

‘Are you achala’s daddy?’ – A small kid asked. She had curly hair and bubbly smile.

‘Yes,,,My Daddy..…’ – Achala responded in an excited tone. And some kids ran towards me and Achala started introducing everyone.

‘Daddy! this is Rohit, this is zakir, Anis, Sylvia, Divya..’ – I told hello to everyone.

‘Daddy, Daddy, Zakir is my best friend.’ – I smiled at that cute blue eyed boy.

‘Uncle, Acchu told that you have so much work and you won’t be able to come. She told she won’t come in today. You don’t have work Uncle?’ – Zakir asked me.

I suddenly felt very bad on how my daughter has understood me. ‘No Zakir, I don’t have work’

‘Daddy, they are calling for the games. ‘ . Zakir ran to his father and waved his hands at me & achala. I took achala by hand and walked towards the stage. They were announcing the 1st game. Fathers will be given a sheet containing questions about their kids. Fathers have to fill about their kids which will be verified with the kids response.

Achala was all excited about the game and she was all set to go. But I felt shivers. I looked at my daughter. Suddenly, I felt very far from her, and the reality hit me, that I don’t know anything about my very own daughter. I blurted out ‘Acchu..we will attend the next game..This one ..’ She gave me a deep stare. I thought she is going to cry or shout or do something. But

instead she pulled out a small paper from her jeans pocket and gave it to me. Completely baffled, I opened the sheet.

My name is Achala. My birthday March 21st. I am 7yrs old. I like butterfly. Superman. Dairy milk. painting. dancing. I am in 1st standard A section. I like Dora. Mango. Apple. Fried rice. Jelly. I don’t like banana. I drink boost.. I like yellow color. My nick name is ‘Honey dew’ And the list went on with small, small spelling mistakes. I looked at Acchu. ‘Daddy, read it, I know they will keep this game. So I wrote it 2 days back itself, to give you if you come. If they ask anything about me, write there. Ok Now go & attend the game’. Most of the things, my daughter has written & gave me, I never knew anything about it. I suddenly felt a lump in my throat. I went to the stage waved my hand to Acchu and got the question sheet. Since Acchu gave the sheet, I came to know about her & I answered almost all the questions. Then they asked Acchu on stage and asked the questions to her. We got the 2nd highest mark in that game. Acchu came running towards me and hugged me. They gave a ‘toy guitar’. Everyone congratulated us. Thou’ I won that game, I felt like a loser. I know, I don’t deserve this. I don’t know anything about my daughter.

She looked very happy showing that guitar to her best friend, zakir . What a kid she is. Understanding that her dad is totally hopeless and don’t want to let her dad down, before others she prepared that sheet and gave to me.

The lump in my throat started getting bigger and my heart became heavy. I caressed her hair. What a beautiful smile she has and such big eyes. Does she miss a wing to get qualified as an angel? I have never admired my daughter or even watched her in all these years. She has that cute dimple of Meera’s as well as her eyes. Does that curling lip edges when she smiles, is

mine? How I missed all this in my life.

Achala pulled me to the stalls there and I got some eatables and ballons for her and zakir.. She kept talking about the next game and suddenly my mobile rang. Oops!! Is it already 10am. I looked at Acchu . Suddenly her face became dark. She looked totally upset and asked in an low voice ‘Daddy! You have to leave now?’

I looked at my mobile. My manager was calling. It’s already 10am. I looked at Acchu. I looked around. All those happy kids with their fathers. I thought about my school days, where my dad used to come for all sports day, annual day, sit with me, cheer me up. Every day morning, while dropping me to school, he will wait near the gate until my head disappear. Evening, he

will come & pick me up in his cycle, and I will be telling him all the stories that happened that day in school.

I saw Acchu. How many untold stories my daughter has kept in her heart to say me? I thought about all those days, where I yearned for a girl child and I wonder, how much of my time I gave her.

I pulled her closer, gave a kiss on her fore head ‘No Honey! I am not going. I will be here only…we will attend all games and roam around whole day.ok?’

‘Really?’ – She asked in an unbelievable tone.

‘Yes sweetz’

‘Thank you Daddy!’ – Achala kissed my cheeks and ran to her friends. School teaches you something or the other always. This time, ‘back to school’ has taught me a wonderful life’s lesson. I called my manager & told that am running high fever and can’t come in today. I know, I can handle things tomorrow. Today my daughter needs me more than anyone can need me in this

world. With a lighter heart, I got up; ran towards Acchu, lifted her and gave her a big swing. She erupted into an uncontrollable laughter. The lump in my throat started melting away.

*Life is often misinterpreted… We work to live and not live to work…*

*Search the real meaning of Life…** *

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Seems lost somewhere from blog now a days..anyways....Not bad..Maintaining a medium pace @ blog postings in past...let me continue the same...to be frank it was not my idea to start write something.....when looked at anything on my way... many times...many thoughts keep on going in mind...but they r never captured...mind s so occupied that it cannot hold all the past moments unless n until someway it is recollected...so its better to mark them somehow n tats where blogging comes out...a nice hobby..a nice place to pen down our thoughts....a nice way to make someone awaken..thats how even I am..!!!...i can say my inspiration is Maddy,one of my lovely frndz y..I started my blog looking at her....n Rejuvenated from Tarun n Swathi.... Thnku 2 all,,,Maddy I dedicate this post to u..:)

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Donno Where am I going and Wat am I meant for...Occupied with routine and monotonous schedule....Feeling too bored from past few days..Thnkgod atleast had some fun time @ project with sports and cultural activities...But again back to same old position..Feeling Sick..Feeling irritated...Feeling boredom...Ooooooooooooooooo...:(